Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day mother. 

I miss you.

I will forever feel like shit when I reach the age of 45 years old because I know that is how long you lived up to. Feel strange when I reach 46 years old because I surpassed your life.

I miss you.

I recall your constant teasing of how you will outlive your children and grandchildren.  How I wish it were so. Never will you ever see me get married( when I do) or see your grandchildren(when I have some).  It has been 6 months and 5 days since you have passed. 

 I miss you. 

 

I woke up  today remembering that first Mother’s Day I recalled without you. I was 10 years old dropping in to a different school because foster care took all of us away from you. I was so attached. Still familiarly attached.  I remember I was in class and the teacher told everyone to write a Mother’s Day Poem. And I cried and cried but wrote it down in my Barbie notebook. 

I miss you.

I remember the Mother's Day when I just got done with Sunday school and we got to take home roses for our mom's. I thought of you and took you out to get food even though you weren't that hungry. I gave you that rose. 

 

Title: Morning the Inevitable Past, Present ,& Future.

 

Title: Deep Slumber inspired by Hercules underworld scene.